I’ll be honest with you I try to live as closely to my values as I can every day. Like anyone, some weeks this gets challenging. I get stressed out, unmotivated, and damn frustrated with everything going on around me. It feels like nothing’s going right and the universe is working against me. When I get to this point, where no amount of positive affirmations or trying to see things clearly is working, I resort to the only thing that really clears my head. Running.
Now, I am not a runner. I’ve never been a runner, and I will never run a marathon in this lifetime. I hated running for a long time. You couldn’t force me to do it. I have big huge boobs and they make running difficult. Plus, it always seemed kind of boring to me. Then I ran a 5K and everything changed.
A little backstory to this 5K. I only ran in it because my cousin (who isn’t super fit) was running in it with her friend Kelsey and I was really proud of her. Then 2 weeks before the big race Kelsey bailed on her and she had no one to run with. So she asked me to fill in as her running buddy. I was like okay let me just really quick train for this 5K in 2 weeks. I just thought “I’m doing it for my cousin so I’ll do what I can”. So I run and I wear Kelsey’s name tag and people on the sidelines are watching me run. Meanwhile, I’m practically in dead last and they are screaming “GO KELSEY”, and I can just remember this being the most amazing feeling. Like wow, people are actually cheering me on. My names not even Kelsey but I’ll tell you it didn’t even matter. I was just feeling so inspired and motivated to keep pushing on. It was incredible. When I finished the race I felt this huge sense of pride and accomplishment like I couldn’t believe I actually did it. For a while, every time I ran I kept reliving this moment. That feeling alone eventually flipped a switch for me. Running just started to feel good.
This was a couple years ago so I’m not thinking about that moment every time I run anymore, but it did leave me with such strong feelings that even now I have positive feelings about running and I enjoy it. (but only outside I still don’t like treadmills).
When my day feels stressful, like today was, I go outside and I go for a run with my dog because it feels good. When I’m running I’m not thinking about my problems, I’m not thinking about what’s going to happen next, I’m not thinking about anything. I can’t help but let myself go and just enjoy the air, listen to the sound of my breath, feel my heart pumping. It is so freeing, and I swear it’s better than any meditation I’ve ever tried.
So whether you like running or not give it a chance. Try to really get your head in the moment. Play some music that gets you pumped. Once you get running feel the power your body has and what it can do. Fell strong, feel powerful. Let yourself go and just enjoy the run.